Let me preface this with a bit of a back story. Today I saw, yet another, "Why I got married at 18." blogpost. I read it and I understand why they made that decision. At the same time I felt bad that I am not married yet and I am 20. Sitting there thinking
"How is it possible that I feel like an old maid at 20?"
So I decided that I am giving up. I am giving up on secretly hunting for my future husband. I am giving up on pinning wedding dresses and engagement rings on pinterest. I am giving up on wasting time wishing I was married already, so I can fit in with the rest of Mormon society.
I AM DONE!
I am going to sit back and enjoy the ride. Whether I meet the man of my dreams next month, next year, or even ten years from now. I am here, today, in the present and I am going to take advantage of that.
Well Until Next Time... :)
That's exactly how I felt too, Kelsey. And when I stopped wondering about finding the man if my dreams I really started LIVING my dreams. It was scary to make that switch in my own mind but once I did I started having the most amazing life. Then I just bumped into the man of my dreams. Now we live the dream together. And I am an actual person in our relationship and it's made me a much better mother too. Granted some days here and there are hard and not that pretty but that is life. Most of the time it has been like a dream since I made that decision years ago. Many times I have to pinch myself to know it's really this joyful. Love you Kelsey! Keep writing.
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